SirSkeetsAlot

Well I've been at it with the ultramarines and following some videos for guidance...let's just say I've hit a snag with combining a dry brushing highlight after a wash.  Watched the technique from a YouTuber that worked for games workshop but it did not come out like I hoped his being more proper blue and mine turning to a chalky light blue after the dry brushing.  Going to strip and start from the beginning.  Practice is what I am aiming for to get as close as possible.  On another matter my mom has been in the hospital a few days now due to chest pains that will lead to an open heart surgery this midweek.  It's just been me and my dad roughing it.  It's tough and if anything happens to her I will be destroyed which will send my depression even more off the deep end.  For those who haven't been in the position, please cherish every moment you have with your parents.  We all take life for granted, but when you visually see how it eats away at someone close to you the reality sets in like a hammer.  We are only here for a limited time.  I'll keep posting updates to the minis as I progress with improvement.  With family falling apart it will be a touch and go bases.  Keep me in prayer and to those on your family.

Started into buying and building miniatures of this genre.  Been a fan for a while and it's something I've been wanting to do for a while.  Hope this helps with some demons I'm trying to steer from.  Let's hope for the best.

I still check back from time to time for any nifty works here and there.  Been struggling with my inner self of late and taking it one day at a time.  Thanks Rastifan for still sending me the last image which thankfully wasn't the last.

It's been a while since I've been on.  A Lot has been going on in my life both physically and spiritually.  I've been trying to find something in life that I can say I am good at.  A talent.  A skill.  A trade.  Art eroticisim I thought would be one but it is clear I have no skill with either a pencil, pen, brush, or computer.  I enjoy the art that I see.  The beautiful female forms that artists such as yourselves can create fascinate and thrill me.  It fuels my imagination, my dreams, and my fantasies.  Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement since I have joined.  Someday...maybe...I'll have some art to submit that is pleasing to the eye.  I don't really belong here.  I never have.  Even though I should think better of myself it's hard to let the envy go.  Rastifan thank you for talking to me and creating things for me.  No one can make a female ogre look so damn hot lol.  To all those who have commented and thanked me for the views and likes I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  May your careers and hobbies in art take you to high places.

Not sure anyone will even bother to read this but writing my thoughts down always made me more clear.  For the longest time I've suffered from deep depression.  There hasn't been much that has happened in my life that has made me come to enjoy living.  Trust me when I say this it is a struggle each day for me.  Being able to do something that was a talent that I could do with some degree of skill was one of many things I wished for.  Art was something that has not, nor do I think it ever will, come naturally to me by skill.  I was always under the notion that if you had the degree of skill and determination you'd succeed.  Don't mistake this as me not making the attempt as I have since middle school.  Leading into college I began to take notice of others artwork.  It is said that seeing the artwork of others inspires others to achieve greatness.  Sadly this was not the case with me.  Looking at some of the work here on DA and other sites has killed much of my fire for it.  Not that I'm saying I wish to be competitive but to be able to create something that people could actually admire.  I look at other and stare aw struck at the degree of skill of many different media.  I eventually became glum to the believe if I can even make something that looks even the bit of professional craft why bother and avoid judgment.  I don't want to be a triple A type of artist, but someone who's.......Decent.  I am currently trying to seek apprenticeship and study from one artists that I have supported through patreon.  Not expecting much in the way of help or kind words as I'm sure many have said the same bout.  I'll be trying to get my first deviation posted sometime this month or the next just to get some feed back.  Depending on what's said I will either continue to proceed with further developing the skill, or see that I don't belong amongst others.  I plan to try to do sketches by pencil as I don't have much computer experience and little money at the moment to get the professional grade programs most artists use.  I don't know if I'll get any better at this, or if Im just wasting my time.  I just want to get some kind of light in my path that makes it worth waking up each day.  Hope I can make something soon that impresses.